Originally, writing endlessly and expressing in a gloomy manner used to be a natural thing a few years ago. I'm not sure exactly when, but this part of my brain must have atrophied. Recently, I've been writing while riding the bus, and it feels so contrived.
Well, maybe this isn't working, so let's forget about it. It's probably a result of gradually and actively ignoring my own perception, and not wanting to fix it in words. It's a form of self-restraint, and that's okay.
But! I can't write academic papers anymore either. I suspect there's a noise generator in my brain that constantly interferes with my logic. As someone who relies on logic, I'm really unhappy. Is there any way to exercise and improve? Friends who read this, please give me some advice.
I feel like I need to establish a very clear line that is separate from other aspects of my life. It would force me to only go straight in a very narrow space.
In the past, when I watched "The Phantom", for some reason, it left me with a strong feeling that often influences my decisions. It's the feeling that if you want to go where you want to go, you have to take a detour and choose the path that seems least likely to reach, in order to arrive safely. This feeling is very detrimental to my current or short-term needs.
Walking may be suitable for prose. But I no longer take walks easily. After getting up, I go downstairs, have a coffee, smoke a cigarette, and walk around the building in a radius of fifty meters. That's the closest thing I can do to taking a walk. So I can't write prose well either.
Surfing the internet always leads me astray. Especially when it comes to interdisciplinary research, I lose focus. I look at a pile of materials, start writing the introduction, and realize that I might be going in the wrong direction.
Reflecting properly! Reduce the types of information intake!