The grand plan of sleeping in a tent in the studio has finally been realized, it's quite comfortable, but it could be even more comfortable. For example, if I could stuff in some yoga mats to make it softer. It would be even better if I could get a bamboo mat!
Sometimes I find it fascinating, I am inside this body, and anything outside of the body is not me, there is a barrier. Summer has arrived, and the noise of the fan makes the surroundings feel more crowded. Even without a bathroom or balcony, I am willing to stay here.
It has been a week or two since I finished writing the above two paragraphs, the editing page is just lying there, and I don't know what else to write. But I already have the bamboo mat! I bought it for 3 pounds at the charity shop downstairs, it's brand new! It has a beautiful gray and white diamond pattern, it looks great!
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I have always struggled and doubted myself, the oppression on myself is almost unconscious. Growing up, I don't know how to consciously enjoy life to the fullest. The more this is the case, the more I long for true redemption, wanting to see miracles being validated, even if my rationality firmly denies their existence. I hope life can be separated, paused, and played at any time. Living all the time is exhausting.
The motivation to keep going is to witness miracles, anything other than eternal immortality is possible.
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Although I've been lying like a corpse this month, I finally got the hang of using the new device.